Tuesday, July 06, 2010

A month of unemployment


Truly, in my 25 years of life on this earth, I have had the most fun this past month. Seriously. Even I can't believe how I've been able to manage this long and going to all the parties, events and adventures I've been on. Drinking all night long, dancing till six in the morning and spending time with friends. I love it, but it will have to come to end soon enough.

AS it is, I spend my time volunteering at a non-profit. Weekends I sleep in and go to parties, art galleries, poetry nights, concerts and stuff like that. I end up going with friends and drinking because they bring the stuff. That's basically it really. In-between all this I still do DREAM Act work by talking to classes and outreaching at events. I also ride my bike a lot since that's free. The pressure to get a job still isn't there yet. School start in two months and I'm feeling really apathic about where I'm going right now.

Part of me just wants to jump off the LA River and end it all. I wanna quit school and leave everything behind. I wanna have the life I have right now. Going to a place that I look forward going to and doing great work. Being able to hang out with friends not worrying about going home early because I have work. Granted that there has been a lot going on because it's summer and friends are leaving for trips, which means going away parties. Part of me wishes this was my life already. Curating art shows, organizing for DREAM Act and community issues, writing and living a decent, honest life. That's what depresses me the most. That I still have to pay more dues to have that kind life. One day I guess. One day.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

"going to all the parties, events and adventures I've been on. Drinking all night long, dancing till six in the morning and spending time with friends. I love it"

GO TO MX, IT'S IN YOUR GeNeS!

IT'S WHeRe U BeLONG!

loveandhatela said...

damn whats with all these haters...anonymous at that..as they say any publicity or attention is good, right?

- tu echale ganas man
ahorra de joven para gozar de viejo- dont be like your dad.

miguelceleste said...

Yo, just wanted to let you know to take out Iamashadow from your links. It is a dead blog. I have a new one now.

I hope you're doing well!

Dedalus1947 said...

I think you are totally age appropriate for 25. Do your thing with heart and compassion, and don't be afraid to cry and admit that you f---ed up. It's the body of our work that will count in the long run, and you still need a lot of practice. So practice! Make mistakes and get better.

Ille, the gal, the space alien said...
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LizBean said...

Geez I bet you're having the time of your life. I'm so jealous. Sometimes I see my bros who don't work and don't even go to school full time who just bum it and say to myself, imagine all the things I would be doing and taking advantage of in that spare time?? Working sucks haha
So take advantage of all the precious oppourtunities to feel alive :)