Monday, October 04, 2010

Restless Nights



I honestly don't know what ails me some days. For the last week or so I haven't been able to sleep right, and it's not just because of the heat wave in L.A. At night and in the early morning, my thoughts and mind seem to wonder into abysmal thinking. Not purposefully, it just goes that way. I think about everything that is wrong in my life and well, it just gets depressing. The horrible home life I have with my parents, school, my situation, friendships and other normal stuff that everyone goes through. I guess because I've never had someone to go to when feeling like this, for me, it just accumulates non-stop. I'm good at hiding it from everyone, but it still shows through in my demeanor, usually cause I'm quite. So, I think I'll shut up for a while.  

2 comments:

PuertoVallartaGirl said...

Wow I haven't read your blog for so long. I thought you were living with a room mate (am I confusing you with another ?). It has been a long time. Well, I just have one comment. I've found it true for myself. Like follows like. So if you find yourself thinking about bad stuff, do what ever you can to change your mind. Because when you think about something terrible you are sure to be flooded with more the same. You can do it. Try to choose one really positive thought or day dream and when you catch yourself thinking about the bad stuff switch in the good one.... Its worth a shot and really does help keep positive.

LizBean said...

I know EXACTLY what you mean.....